Love is what best captures my 2012. It all starts and ends with Love – with God, who is all Love Himself. I end this year thanking God for the gift of His Love.
The year started with God teaching my family what Love is when daddy left us and went back home to heaven. How did I understand love when life became too painful to bear? How did I understand life when the only thing that was real was daddy’s death? How can there be life in death? How did I choose God in this loss? How did I choose life in daddy’s death? God’s love penetrated right through the depths of my heart, healing me the way He knows how and making me understand that all of these will always be about His love for my family, no matter how difficult it was. Everything was about His love.
Everything was so difficult to accept early this year, but it was God’s grace that kept us alive. Yes, there is life in death. Now more than ever, I understood with all of my heart and soul that what is important in this life is my relationship with God and the people around me, that love and life is what matters, that at the end of this journey, only God matters.
And so I faced this year with all of daddy’s inspiration in my heart and all of God’s promise of love amidst the pain. And so this year, God made me witness a lot of things, which were all way beyond my imagination. God brought me into a deeper experience of Him and His love as a daughter, a sister, a friend and a missionary.
Impossible things coming into life. Dreams happening right before my very eyes. Prayers answered. Lives changed. Hearts restored. Limits defied. Hopelessness turned into inspiration. Pain transformed into love. Death becoming life. Year of changes. Year of risks. Year of faith started as early as 2012 for me and my family. This year was a fulfillment of a lot of what I have never seen, heard, felt and experienced before.
God allowed me to experience Him and His love differently this year. All of 2012 was Love.
Love was being able to embrace the pain and accept the reality of losing daddy at the first month of this year. Love was being able to trust in God’s beautiful wisdom despite our loss. Love was being in total surrender to His will at this difficult experience. In pain or in happiness, love was being able to say, “Yes, Lord I will praise Your Name.” Lord, we continue to cling to Your promise.
Love was being able to serve in almost all the congresses, most especially during WYC2012 and the ALL STARS Youthfest. Love was being able to be gifted with vision and imagination on how to put up our events differently this year – everything was upgraded and was brought to greater heights!
Love was serving at the World Handmaid’s Congress for the first time, being able to support my mother and understand her all the more through this experience.
Love was serving and sharing to the CFCYFL Metro Manila leaders God’s greatness during the Summer House Training and all other summer missions. It is a privilege to be used by the Lord in making His love known to more and more youth in a whole lot different level.
Love was experiencing the Lord through my 5 week Europe mission (Vienna, Germany, Denmark, Norway, Slovenia, Rome and Paris), sharing my Choose Life experience early this year to the beautiful CFC FFL Community all over Europe, serving at the European Singles and Youth Conferences, meeting beautiful people in all seven countries. All of it was nothing less than beautiful. In my visit at St. Peter’s Basilica, God taught me that Love is Effort; and this has changed my perspective about love throughout the year. Truly, God knows how to heal a broken heart by making me experience this unforgettable mission trip with Kuya Cocoi, amazing are the plans of God. The mission trip happened at the perfect moment when I needed it the most. Your wisdom is beautiful, God.
Love was being able to serve for the first time with the CBCP-ECY during the one week National Conference for Youth Ministers held at Legazpi. It was a different experience for me, making me appreciate the Catholic Church all the more and affirming me that I am where I am supposed to me at this moment of my life. Met a lot of new people who are all willing to sacrifice a lot to be able to further God’s mission through the Catholic Church. What beautiful faith we have! I have the best job in the whole wide world, really!
Love was discovering and tapping new YFL talents in all our CFCYFL events this year and being able to share the blessing of using your talents for the Lord. Love was holding auditions to form the YFL Dance Crew and bringing in new talents for the YFL Music Ministry. Love was mounting a never-before-seen production for the ALL STARS Youthfest, witnessing how God changed the lives of everyone involved in this production, God affirming me once more that nothing is impossible with the power of His grace.
Love was being part of the amazing CFCYFL Team and being able to dream with them, to push myself beyond my limits with them, to witness miracles with them and to deepen my conviction as a missionary with all of them. It was an intense wind catching year for all of us, and yes, we went where the Spirit led us and so we are who we are today. I grew to be stronger and more mature in my missionary life through all my experiences with the ministry and this family around. This team is my family and they have made life a lot more exciting and beautiful throughout this year. I can’t thank God enough for them. Thank you Lord for my HC family!
Love was being able to have the opportunity to lead the promising CFCYFL Metro Manila Team, allowing God to be powerfully at work in all of us. It was a challenging year for all of us but God was faithful to all of us. Love was felt in the presence of our couple coordinators. Love was felt in every sacrifice made by each of the new mission volunteers in our team! This team is truly God’s beautiful gift to me this year.
Love was doing things we have never done before in CFCYFL. Fireworks and freebies in our congresses. Meeting deadlines. Intense productions and a whole lot more! It was such a beautiful privilege to be part of this fearless family who are all more than willing to sacrifice everything for the sake of the Lord.
Love was passing my MA Comprehensive Exams. How are able to do everything? If it is Love that motivates you then definitely impossible is nothing. For me it was way beyond my capacity to do practicum, take comprehensive exams and pursue masters alongside my missionary life, but God was so alive and really, all things work for good for those who love and serve the Lord.
Love was being able to drive alone this year for the first time! Love is being able to win the trust of Kuya EJ when it comes to my driving career (which by the way was a long process). Thank you Kuya! Definitely, looking forward for more!
Love was having the sincerest and most genuine friends around! A lot has changed this year but true friendships were made stronger. Thank you Lord for all the great friends who were there for me and my family through this intense year. They were all great expressions of Your unwavering love for me.
Love was being able to do more, serve more and love my family more and more this year. As months went by, we experienced a lot of firsts (birthdays and other celebrations) without daddy around. Genuine support. Solid prayers for each other. True Family Love. Truly, we have grown more in love as a family with daddy watching over us all the way from heaven.
Love was being able to do what God asked of me to do. Before the year started, I prayed that I may grow stronger as woman this year. This 2012, I must say that I have grown to be a more mature daughter, friend, sister and missionary with all that the Lord has made me experience. I have understood Love at its finest and it has made me the different woman that I am now. Love is the only force capable of changing the heart of the human person and truly this was real in me throughout this journey. This year has brought me steps closer to my dream of becoming the woman that the Lord wants me to be and I thank the Lord for this.
What really matters in life is that we are loved by Christ and that we love Him in return. In comparison to the love of Jesus, everything else is secondary. And, without the love of Jesus, everything is useless (PJPII). This is my 2012; and with so much of God’s love in my heart and in my life I am in joyful anticipation of the best that is yet to come. I am very much excited to be all the more loved and to share more of this love that has expanded my heart this year to everyone else this coming 2013. Greater things are definitely yet to come!
Thank you Lord for loving me like no other this 2012. You have made me a person of love through this year and I am more than willing to be used by You this coming year. Set a fire in my heart that I cannot contain and I cannot control, I want more of You God. I want more of Your love. I want to be able to love like You. I pray for the grace to become the woman You want me to be. I pray to grow in faith this 2013. I hold on to Your beautiful promise. Take control and lead me to where You want me to be. Let Your will be done in my life. I love You Lord.
(Daddy, wherever you are, thank you for loving us continually. We may not be seeing you everyday at home, but your loving presence is so real in our lives. May we continue your legacy of life, love and inspiration all the more this coming 2013. We promise to take care of mommy. We promise to take care of each other. We promise to serve the Lord with our lives. We promise to strive to become the persons God wants us to be, that in God’s perfect time we may see each other again, up there in heaven. I love you daddy.)